I'M MARRIED!

Aku sudah pun selamat bergelar isteri kepada seorang suami yang dicintai, sejak 2bulan lebih yang lalu. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah Ya Allah...

Kehidupan setelah berkahwin jauh lebih matang berbanding sebelumnya. sebab tu aku memilih untuk 'delete' entri entri dulu kala. hidup baru, blog ni mesti baru jugaaa.

Sejak menempuh alam rumahtangga, banyak manis, bahagia, dugaan, kesakitan, kegembiraan, kesedihan. apa yang penting, harus sentiasa bersyukur setiap masa, dengan segala nikmat dan dugaan yang dihadiahkan Tuhan. Syukur alhamdulillah, aku dikurniakan seorang suami yang bertanggungjawab, penyayang, keluarga mertua yang sangat prihatin, baik..

Semoga aku sentiasa berusaha menjadi isteri yang baik, anak yang baik. mungkin sekarang tidak, sekurang-kurangnya mesti hari hari berusaha. berusaha untuk sentiasa memekarkan cinta pada suami yang mencintai aku, hingga akhir hayat. insyaAllah...

I'm not perfect.

"I'm not perfect,
I've made mistakes but have always taken full responsibility for my actions, and i have dealt with the consequences."

elL; Keep Believing

Sometimes things aren't the way I hoped they would be.
That's when I have to tell myself that things will get better.
It may not be easy, but take each step forward as a challange.
Learn from my difficult times.
Grow in courage and in strength.
Keep believing in myself.
Stay focus on all i want my life to be.
Challenges are part of life's journey that will only bring me closer to what i dream to be.

H.I.J.R.A.H

Indah malam walau tak berbintang,
Mengharap bulan penambah seri,
Tahun baru kini mendatang,
Umur yang berbaki harus disedari.

"Salam Maal Hijrah"
buat semua, semoga sentiasa berada dalam lingkungan Rahmat-Nya.

Butterfly, butterfly.

Butterfly; butterfly fly away,

teach me how to be as free as free can be.

Butterfly; butterfly I see you there,
its beautiful the way your wings caress the air.

Butterfly; butterfly go as high as you can go,
show me the things that I don't yet know.

Butterfly; butterfly fly into the sky,
dropp down and land yourself by my side.

Butterfly; butterfly I see you kiss a flower,
my eyes fill and I begin to ponder.

Butterfly; butterfly your beauty soars,
I see the beauty in you and I see the beauty within me.

Butterfly; butterfly show me the way,
For beauty is beautiful but there's more to me.

Butterfly; butterfly show yourself,
I see your colors and I see your shimmer, is there anything else?

Butterfly; butterfly what is the matter?
can't you give me an answer for the questions I desire?

Butterfly; butterfly I see you dying,
life is far too short to sit around crying.

Butterfly; butterfly don't you go,
for your goal has not yet been accomplished.

Butterfly; butterfly let me lift you,
I peer into your eyes and see that there's a secret inside.

Butterfly; butterfly let it out,
your secret could hold great things, give me the secret to life.

Butterfly; butterfly let me know,
before you take your last breath; show me what you hold.

Butterfly; butterfly there you go...
You twitch away letting me that the secret to life is having the courage...
to just let go.

I whispered.

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate.

I testify that no one is God but Allah, alone, without a partner, and I testify that Muhammad is His slave and messenger. Ya Allah, make me among the frequent repenters and make me among the purified. Praise and thanks be to You, Ya Allah. I testify that no one is God but You. I ask You for forgiveness and I repent to You.

I direct myself in worship to the One Who created the heavens and Earth, following the upright path, being a Muslim, and not among those who associate partners with Allah. Surely, my prayer, my acts of worship in obedience, my life, and my death belong to Allah, the Lord of the worlds, Who has no partner. With this I was ordered, And I am one of the Muslims.

Allah, guide me among those whom You guided, relieve me from sickness among those whom You relieved, support me among those whom You supported, bless for me what You gave me. Protect me against the evil of what You created, for You are the One Who orders (ordains) and not the One Who is ordered (ordained for). Whomever You support is not weakened and ignored, and whomever You oppose is not dignified. our Lord, may Your givings increase. You are the Supreme One Whose status is high and great and You are clear of any imperfection. Praise is due for what You ordained. I ask You for forgiveness and I repent to You. May Allah raise the rank of Muhammad, and his Al and Companions. May Allah protect the Prophet’s Nation from what he feared for it.

LonelinesS

Loneliness is blue like sadness.
It tastes like a sour lime with salt on it.
It smells like rotten food and causes madness.
For fun it likes to do nothing but bad things.
While almost everything makes it angry
Everything makes it sad,
But nothing makes it happy.

Loneliness is smaller than you and me,
But bigger than peoples' minds.
Happiness is its enemy,
But nothing can be its friend.

Loneliness keeps its happy feelings in a secret place.
Its favorite place is in peoples' minds.
But it hates to be anywhere else.
Making people feel bad is its greatest success.
Not cheering people up it is greatest failure.
Loneliness makes me feel as sad as a deserted island.

Heaven!!!

Gues what? i missed my lappy so much. to blogged and to surf freely. haha. now im home. i can blogged anytime on this last two weeks before holiday end. hmm there's a lot of things to share actually, but i dunno how to start. hehe. i just miss my site and visitin others. so that i will go through to my friend's blogs aftrwrd.

U know how i felt, i was sick enuf of cudnt even eat whatever i want too while i was so damn hungry! OMG, it was a terrible moment.

A Book of Memories.

Hidden in the attic,

all the way upstairs,
is something very special,
that I would like to share.

My hopes,
my dreams,
old photographs,
of good times and bad times that make me laugh.

The joy of a laugh,
the thrill of a smile,
leaves me to remember the pure, simple bliss.

I cry for the fun,
and giggle for the pain,
I enjoyed the good life I was able to maintain.

The thoughts and wishes,
they all stay with me,
all of these contained in my book of memories.

She Let Him.

The nigth was so cold. And i text you.
But suddenly it happened again. You said it again.
Are you happy with that?
Whatever you said was a poison for me.
You. With your own words.
And me. With my expectation.
How long it wud be so?
A cant answer either.
And now. I let you do so.
If it was the best for you.
Just proceed.
And im done with you.
Fullstop.

But deep inside my heart.
i still keep thinking about the memories.
From the past till then.
It will owez stayed.
And i miss everytime of it.

You Were there.

God took you away.
It doesn't seem fair,
but in the back of my mind,
you will always be there.

We were so closed,
but our paths did cross,
and your absence in my life,
is to me a great loss.

You were too young to die, and
too innocent to feel that pain.
Only heaven benefits,
because you it has now gained.

I may think of you a little less
with each passing day,
but your strength is something I won't forget,
you have changed me in a way.

I wish for you eternal peace;
that's what you deserve after all.
I hope I lead my life well enough
to meet up with you in the end.

*i miss u*
i do.

A Walk To Remember.

Love is always patient and kind
it is never jealous
love is never
boastful or conceited
it is never rude or selfish
it does not take offence
and is never resentful
love takes no pleasure
in other people's sins,
but delights in the truth
it is always ready to excuse
to trust, to hope,
and to enure
whatever comes
A Walk To Remember.